Wild Horses Couldn't Drag Me Away

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! 18!

I've spent the whole day, and soon the rest of the night, and part of tomorrow morning, with Jesse. So it's been the best birthday of my life. Obviously♥
AND
My Dad is driving into town for me after his meeting to wish me a happy birthday and who knows what else. And he told me my car is ready!!! Oh my god, soooo exciting!

Just had a few minutes on my hands waiting for Jesse to get back home, but I should probably go enjoy my first day as a legal adult. Oh and don't you worry. I went and looked at porn. It was a fun time. They asked me for ID, and I couldn't have been happier haha

;)

Dropping So Quickly

My days are completely devoid of any excitement when we're apart. It's ridiculous. So it's a good thing that we've been hanging out every day for over a week now. Except today. But we texted all day so that mildly calmed me. But only a little.



Being wrapped in nothing but your hoodie all day definitely improved my mood though.

This feeling is crazy. I can't even fathom how this came to be. But here I am, and I've never been happier. And the best part is how open you are about reciprocating. You just say exactly what you're thinking and feeling and it makes my heart absolutely stop. I've never been so dead set on someone. And I've never been so sure.

So this is us =) I rather like it

Oh Facebook....

LOL
Making it "facebook official" has caused quite the stir. It's hilarious though. I totally got harassed about not having it on my profile, and now that it is, Jesse's getting it LOL
When are we getting married? TAKE IT EASY GUYS
Overall though, everyone is just really happy for us. OBVIOUSLY. Because we rock =)

Ooooooh blogging. Thanks for letting me get all my girliness out so that I can keep it from my general behavior. Who knows what would happen if I didn't jot it all down =P

Just Kidding!

♥
I'm just paranoid! And easily frustrated!

Everything is okay =) As far as I'm concerned anyway. Thanks Facebook. Who needs to have a conversation when you can just leave comments that imply everything is good =P

As if my life could suck for more than 5 minutes at a time.
Jeeze Louise and Pumpkin Trees!
You'd think I'd know this by now
♥

Walking The Streets With You And Your Worn-Out Jeans

How can so much have changed over a 4-day weekend?

Suddenly, the thing I thought was making everyone happiest for me, tore it all apart. It looks like I lost something in Victoria but I know deep down it was bound to happen. If that's all it takes to be turned on, then I'd rather just walk away. But we broke the cardinal rule. Don't ditch your friends. But what if your friends are being complete jerks? What then?

I'm not going to let this new happiness slip away because of a few disapproving set of eyes. Fuck that.

ONTO THE POSITIVE

This weekend was like a chapter out of a Jane Austen novel, and more specifically a scene out of a Shakespearean play. It was all terribly dramatic. But the best part was that although we were the cause of all the drama, we stayed above it.
I lost count of all the sunsets and ocean views and light breezes and walks in gardens and through the harbor. It was flawless...

...Until we got separated momentarily.
THEN
It was a very modern balcony scene which we joked heavily about the next day.

So we got ourselves into a little bit of trouble. Anyone could have seen that coming. It could never matter anyway because of my unwavering ability to talk myself out of anything.

Overall, Victoria has left me with some great memories. And the overdue acceptance of something that makes perfect sense.

=)

Window Seats and Whales

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LEAVING IN AN HOUR!!!

Oh my god, the day is finally here. Everything has worked out so perfectly and with such grace and ease that I can't hardly believe it. As if I didn't already feel as if I've been living in a dream. Or an alternate reality. But somehow, this is all for real. And in less than an hour, my mom is driving Acacia and I to the school to load our gear. I have WAY too much stuff. I'm just going to say it's my only suitcase and it isn't full. Lies lies lies. It's pretty full.

I'm ACTUALLY looking forward to this ridiculously long bus ride now. As of last night I have the ideal seat partner =)
Not really sure who Acacia is going to end up sitting with now, but she has soooo many options that it isn't an issue.

And then there's the ferry! Stoked, so so stoked! I better see some fucking orca whales. I have very high expectations so it's in everyone's best interest that they're met. I'll be very disappointed and the small children we're performing for will see me sing without any zeal =( But I don't really forsee that!
Told Jesse to learn some whale calls LOL It's only fair. I have the bird calls down.

Obviously I didn't sleep again last night (well, 2 hours), so I'm just running high on frenetic energy and... well I'm in a really hyped mood let's just leave it at that!

OMFG!!!Eeeeeeeek!!!

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Your Hands Are In My Hair But My Heart Is In Your Teeth

VICTORIA TOMORROW!!!

I'm unbelievably excited. Haven't slept in 2 days now, nbd. My hair looks better than ever, I'm bronzed and I'm GOING TO VICTORIA TOMORROW!!! Could life get any more delicious? I think not. So sleep is the last thing on my mind. There are more entertaining things I could do with that time... =)

Plan for the day... Mel's taking me to the bank, drop off with Acacia, MUST remember to buy a hoop for my nose (you have no idea what sort of weird mishaps have occurred with this stupid stud), chiro appointment to fix my crazy ribs LOL
And then there's the variety show... let's not go there. Waste of time save for a few details. The only place I want to be singing in the next 24 hrs is out on the ocean with my girls!
No clue how I'm going to handle the 8-10 hr coach ride to do on-the-way performances though. I could barely sit through the 1.5hrs it took to get my hair dyed yesterday. It was brutal. Considering I'm taking some serious painkillers, I should NOT be in that much pain.

Oh well! I know something that will make me feel MUCH BETTER ;)

P.S... It drives me crazy how you always know exactly what to say (but in a good way)



Oh Look! The View From Our Hotel! =P

Our Song Is The Way You Laugh

2 DAYS TIL VICTORIA!!!

Today was the first incident where I felt like maybe I was sabotaging my happiness a little bit. I snapped out of it though and fixed what, it turns out, wasn't hurt in the first place. There I go, over-thinking things again. Quoi de neuf =P

I get my hair done today! Yay! No more faded fiery hair!!! And no letting my lovely tan fade either =) sun cocoon with Courtney today when she gets off school!

It's crazy how these little exciting things get me so worked up. Everything is just so great though♥

I Can See It Going Down

3 DAYS TIL VICTORIA!!!

The excitement has fully set in at this point. I was stressing last night while I was talking to my sister Mel and she totally solved my problems by saying that she would give me spending money for the trip as an early birthday present. I can always pay her back anyway =) And my Mom said that she would lend me the money for the meals that aren't covered. Thank Goddess!

As if I weren't enough of a girl, I'm making up a packing list and planning out all the possible outfits. I want to pack smart. Is that a crime? If you saw the detailed notations on these sheets of paper, you would certainly say yes. So... don't answer that.

There's so much to do! Luckily, I live for these sort of organized preparations. I also live for music and partying. So while this is a school trip, it certainly won't be PG. I'm basically going to be faking all the flute-playing anyway because most of the songs are waaaaaay beyond my experience level anyway. My teacher is totally fine with this. I told him I'm probably going to be tipsy the whole time. So at least he's well-informed =) He's so cool. Yay!

The best part of this trip though, is that I get to spend a blissful 4 days in my favorite place with all my favorite people. H.S. A.S. M.P. J.T. R.C-S. You rock ;)

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Countdown =)

4 days til Victoria!!!

Which is actually kind of scary because my cheque still hasn't come =( stupid mail.

So much has happened this week. Or maybe not, but it feels like it. The biggest changes are the ones that you can barely see. It's the words we whisper or the embraces that no one witnesses. And in those moments everything is suddenly a little clearer. And you know what? Sometimes it scares the shit out of me. But then I take a step back and look at everyone in my life right now, and I know it's all going to be great; that I don't have to be afraid of being this happy.

Even if they get on my nerves (however rarely) I have the best friends ever♥
Be jealous.