Finally Free!!!

Tomorrow I have an appointment with my school counselor. So, by the end of first period, I will officially be GRADUATED. Turns out, a lot of people just can't stand high school for these last 3 months. I have all my credits, all my transitions are in, and I don't need ANY of the classes I'm currently enrolled in. Why stay? Good fucking question. And I can't come up with an answer, besides to see my friends. Luckily, that isn't going to stop me from leaving because we hang out ALL the time anyway, and I'm still going to be involved in school activities. There's NO WAY I could leave jazz band, and I promised Acacia I would still do Model UN. Which I love =)
Speaking of jazz band, we have festival tomorrow night. Yay? My throat was SO sore tonight but I wasn't about to put up with that, so I downed a good 8 cups of lemon tea. It's better now. Yeah, being sick can kiss my ass. It's not happening.
Life is good...
No.
Life is great.

Up Against A Dirty Wall

I was wrong. Brazilians everywhere were right. Sorry for ever doubting the quoted wisdom.
And thanks to Olive for saying exactly what was on my mind lol. D is NOT looking so good anymore. I guess all it took was a really fun night where he wasn't around to remind me that I was having a great time LONG before he showed up, and can have even better times in the future. Or right now lol.
Overall though, nbd. I'm glad I'm really casual about things.

88 Days and Counting

You open your eyes, and it occurs to you that it isn't the world that's spinning, but rather you. Well, that's how I feel, anyway. I feel like all of a sudden time has been thrust upon me and I don't know how to control it. On the other hand, I don't know if I want to. Maybe because I've been spinning about for so long, it only feels natural to live in a whirlpool of sorts. I sometimes wonder if I'm just biding my time; waiting until this chaos is acceptable. I like it.
Isn't that great? I realized that I spend so much time being what I believe other people want, WHO they want, that I often forget what I like, or what I want for MYSELF. If I'm in really deep, like lately, I forget who I even am. I guess that isn't so important, though. I'm going to change either way, and no one is forcing me to play a part. I don't think I could handle life without this process. So boring. So unremarkable.
I want to make it all happen, everything that I want, or THINK I want, or even want to want.
Because I can. And lately, that's reason enough.
Isn't that great =)